Hi and welcome back!
Another exercise day today and I wonder how you are feeling about it? Are you doing it because you have to? Are you doing it because you want to? What are your expectations about the exercise sessions? Your self talk could make the difference to what you achieve today, so what do you want to achieve?
If your reason for exercising today is weight loss, how will you know at the end of the session that you have lost weight? The answer is you can't know - So is it worth making this the reason for doing the training? If, however, your reason for coming is to get stronger or fitter, or something similar, then by the end of the session you will know if you felt a little bit stronger or fitter than last time. As you see yourself doing one more press up, holding the plank a few more seconds or managing one more body weight get up, you will know that you have achieved something.
Looking forward to seeing you become a little bit stronger and a little bit fitter today!
Sue x
FAT-SCRAP MARCH 2010 DAY TEN
FAT-SCRAP MARCH 2010 DAY TWELVE
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Oh NO! I've just written out 2 days food choices, a long note to you all and my computer has scrapped it! Reason for no response yesterday - my work computer has an unknown virus and Security were working on it all day. It still isn't right but i have ways of at least using my BT account for a while! Lovely to read your news all of you and so sad for you Jayne. A hug is in order tonight me thinks!
Here is Sunday's food choices:
porridge, blueberries (forgot protein), 2 ryvitas with houmus, Nairins oat cake, apple, satsuma; roast chicken, sprouts, potatoes, carrots, beans; snack - Cashews
Yesterday: Buckwheat porridge, grapefruit, soya , seeds, Juice bar (hated first bite); jacket with ratatouille, tuna; banana; chicken, salsa sauce, mixed veg, rice.
Look forward to seeing you later tonight. xx
Great choices Mara! Good to see more protein in yesterday's food choices. Keep up the good work - it will be worth all the hard work and sacrifices!!! x
Hi girls! Hope you are all having a great day. Really sorry I can't join you in any exercise sessions this week. I will miss them!
Did a great class last night with Sue where we did a kind of mini-accumulator, 8 repetitions of each exercise building up slowly by adding a different one to the list each time. Wow! How effective! I really enjoy working out this way. I find in Body Pump I am forever wanting the parts I don't like to end but in this type of workout you just don't feel that way. 8 repetitions is VERY achievable and if it is something you don't like (tricep dips possibly?? ;)!) they are over before you know it and you are on to something different. Excellent stuff. And boy, I feel like I've worked hard this morning!
Now I've been giving a lot of thought in the last few days to attachment and I'm going to share this with you. I'd be interested to know your thoughts too...
In yogic philosophy 'attachment' is seen to be something which we should reduce in order to become more at peace with ourselves. An interesting thought...what are we all attached to?
I've just changed my car. The one I've bought is 8 years newer, many less miles, suits my needs far better and all round cheaper to run. Bit of a no brainer really.. so why did I find it so hard to come to terms with selling my old one? Because I was so attached to it! I have argued my way out of selling it for ages, thinking of any excuse possible why I couldn't let it go. Yet I was also miserable I spent so much on running costs. Now I've let it go, yes it's still sad and I will miss it's character but...what a liberation! Now I can free up some money for other things I have wanted to do, I can give my children's friends lifts as I have one extra seat, I'm not so worried it will break down...
A strange analogy maybe but interesting how our attachment to things can weigh us down.
So it got me thinking...why have I found it hard to lose weight and be healthier in the past? Have I been in some way 'attached' to the very thing I want to get rid of? And why?
Some soul searching here made me realise that yes I have been attached to being overweight. It's been something I can hide behind - a reason not to join in activities I've thought I'm too fat for, a reason not to be more active, a reason not to go out even. It's been my safety net.
In relationships my partners have liked me to be fat so that no one else will fancy me and because I've wanted to please them and for them not to feel threatened, I've gone along with it - keeping my relationship safe in the process.
Friendships too...I remember at school my tall skinny blonde best friend telling another girl that she liked hanging around with me because she looked so good against me. Rather than being strong and telling her to get lost I instead held on to my fat as a way of holding on to that friendship.
I think the point I'm trying to get to here, is that by finally letting go of that outer and inner layer of 'safety net', I can love myself more, and I'm no longer attached to the acknowledgement and acceptance of others for my own happiness.
So Fat Scrap is really helping me to loosen those attachments in my life and set myself free...just like that butterfly moving away from it's crysallis.. and it's not scary to be free it's wonderfully liberating!
I have just died and gone to heaven!!! Just had the MOST delicious Nakd bar I have ever had!
It's called COCO ORANGE and it's amazing! Bought it in Tesco this morning from the FreeFrom section. Turns out they've just added some new varieties to their range.
Loved it so much I've just bought a mixed case of all the new flavours from Natural Balance Health Foods - here's the link...
http://www.naturalbalancefoods.co.uk/store/new-products/default.aspx
When they arrive I will bring one of each along to Sue's so we can all try them!
They are grrrrreat!!! And best of all no wheat, no dairy and no added sugar! Yipeee! xx
mmmmmm, very thought provocative, Apple..and I must congratulate you on your strength in being so honest and open with yourself and in sharing it with us. I feel so privileged to be coming on this journey with you and I'm sure everyone reading this does too!
I think you have hit the nail on the head with the way you talk about attachment and it weighing us down. When you are thinking of letting go of something it's good to first identify what has been the purpose of having it in your life, as you have done. Once you know what it's purpose was you can then ask if it is still serving that purpose and if it is, and you want it to carry on serving that purpose, then of course you are not going to let it go. On the other hand, if you decide that it is no longer serving that purpose -perhaps something else needs to or has taken it's place, or perhaps the purpose no longer needs serving- then you are going to find it easy to let it go.
Applying this to your car, your car served a purpose of getting you from a to b but now a different car needs to, and can, serve this purpose - so, easy to let go? No, because it serves another purpose..and that sounds like its an emotional one - much harder to let go of! Identifying the emotional purpose of the car and whether you need the car to give you this emotion or whether you can find it elsewhere, might help you find it easier to let go.
When there is an emotional attachment it is so much more difficult to let go, as we all know when we lose someone we love.
Two of the first six human needs are love/connection and significance and we can look to fulfil these needs in negative ways as well as positive ways. As you say, Apple, you have held on to your fat to feel loved and significant in you relationships, but in a negative way. Now you recongise that you are stronger and "more liberated" when you look for more positive ways to feel loved and significant -and the first place you have found them is by loving yourself, accepting and valuing who you are and taking into account your needs. To me, this is self nurturing - just like the caterpillar does as it transforms into the butterfly!! x x
Thank you so much for all your comments Sue, they.. as always.. are so thoughtful and thought provoking.
I find at the moment I am analysing things at a much deeper level than usual. So anyone reading this who thinks 'hey, this stuff is way too heavy' I do apologise. I know I am sharing my journey with you on such a raw level, it's my therapy and if it helps just one person with theirs then it will be worth it.
One of the many fabulous comments from the beautiful journal you gave me Sue sums up how I feel about Fat Scrap and my journey into it...
"It's only a thought and a thought can be changed" - I am not limited by any past thinking. I choose my thoughts with care. I constantly have new insights and new ways of looking at my world. I am willing to change and to grow.
Oh and finally girls...
Many thanks for all your great topping ideas! I love them and can't wait to try out the ones I haven't already xx
Great session tonight with Sue. Thanks Mara for being supportive to my ailments during the training!! Also well done for your hard work there. We are getting there!!! I LOVED the boxing. It did not feel I was working out as I was so focused on what I was doing. Even though the last couple of days have been sooo busy I gotback tonight and didn't feel exhausted.
Apple- wow, how great to have got a handle on your attachment to your weight and why at one point it served a purpose and that you have now realised it is no longer of use. I know myself that I have mine to keep my vulnerable side covered. My physical height and stature has always led everyone to see me as strong and capable. So for me my journey is to strengthen myself physically and emotionally to enable me to let go , allow myself to be more vulnerable, and receive all that positive attention and be
noticed without feeling exposed.
I can feel boxing could be quite a key to increasing my confidence. I could become addicted!! Loving feeling more energy and much better sleep. Not missing alcohol
Food today
orange juice porridge with seeds, yogurt, soya mik and kiwi
banana, 3 oatcakes
2 poached eggs on 2 granary toast ( out for lunch and the best choice on limited menu of bread, dairy, mayo and no real salad or veg)
tofu, cashew nut and pineapple stirfry- with stirfried cabbage onion peppers mushrooms, pineapple juice
My role in life has always to receive attention for what I do not for who I am.
he he, just looked back and see I wrote thought provocative instead of provoking...was trying to think how to spell provoking and so thought of the word provocative and of course, that's the word that got written...just shows how powerful our thoughts are in guiding our actions!
Great training girls..and so pleased you loved the boxing....keep going for it and knock 'em out!!!
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